Over the past few years I have left those dark and bleak days behind, but sometimes along the way there were times when I could not quite believe this.
That old feeling of coping still lingered ; it was at times as if they I was waiting or almost willing those dark days to reappear !!!
Maybe living with them was easier than just waiting for them to reappear!!
There will always be sad days along with the good ones obviously, but what has changed is the way I deal with them as a true and whole person.
Instead of the 'being or 'chameleon' that coped years ago I am now a person who has found my 'true self'.
I accept that life will still have those bleak days but there is also that strong knowledge that I will cope with a true and whole heart; and I will always emerge a winner no matter how bleak or cruel life can be at times.
It is not a sign of weakness to cry when in the company of others ;in fact to be able to do so is a sign of strength; however I will never be the person who cries easily ;this is 'me' and nothing to do with my life experiences.
That gloom from days gone by
A demise painful but welcome
In its place a beautiful horizon
Hands linked and together we fill
Our hearts with beauty
Oh yes we must
As I look out through the window I see beautiful sunshine and I will soon be outside on the patio to potter around.
My patio is my haven,my heart and my inspiration.
There is beauty;the wondrous scents of life and the sign of the love and care myself and my partner Dai have lavished on here.
xThe birth of so much beauty fills my heart with pride,love,and a never ending inspiration blossoming from deep within.
I share with all
My feelings from within
A true wish so wondrously strong
Those lit beams magnetically guide you on
Your deep pride lights paths for others
Your path will glow for all
I give to you